zarnochwf1.com The ramblings of a sleep deprived college student.

While cleaning my room, I found peace with the fact that everything happens for a reason.

Looking back, if I changed anything, it might have resulted in short term happiness, but in the long term it would likely have been in vain, an attempt to cull a few more seconds when I could sit back and have hours.

It's an interesting and perplexing problem, looking back on past events. I sometimes wonder "what if I did this instead of that? Things would have been so much better...", completly failing to realize that if I had the power to change it, I would effectivly cease to exist as I am today.

It would be an odd place, stuck at that fork in the road, deciding to take the one path and keep going ahead, or take the other back to a prior time, get a second chance, but never know I did, effectivly ending my current future, and to some extent my near past.

Some might say that's what deja-vu is, the artifacts of somehow getting that second chance, somehow knowing that things should have been different at a point farther down the road.

I guess for now, I'll stay my course, and let it take me where it may.